Triumph??

On the land of blood and flesh
Humans slaughtered like young veal
Carcass of  the remainings
huntings and hidings
onto the burrow of red muds
over the shadows of bare trees

Its the battle for conquering
For the fall of everything
Pride to gloat over something
A reason you got to rejoice and cheer
But with whom you’d share and care

A ground zero you’re already at
What’s more that could possibly be
Which side you have leaned on
How far it would shade you

Emptyness

No i did not anticipate anything to have
I always tried my best to gave
If my pot was half empty or full
I never realised the world could me so cruel
That i never could attempt to have anything save

My dreams my hopes my choices my aims
Were bullied and burried ,and some even burnt alive
I never could forsee that it would be an end
That my wings were cut off all by me

Now that numbness stays with me to heal
But there’s a loneliness that always try me to kill
Incaged or imprisoned that im chocking
Everything is unaware of what is really happeening.

“Neighborhood”

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It’s been four years that I left my country into this land of dreams.USA, as to pursue my high education degree. The vivid picture of my native people still comes crystal clear in my mind. I can’t resist these nostalgic feelings overwhelming my heart every moment of this busy life. To know the meaning of the term “neighborhood” , one doesn’t need to Google on net or refer the dictionary. There are many things which one learns from the contextualization. Indeed. The literal meaning of the term “neighborhood”, according to Oxford dictionary is “a number of persons living near one another in a particular locality”. Man, being social by nature needs everyone, near and there, for the shake of security, prosperity and harmony. The feeling of neighborhood is tied up with every human rights and duties.
I was born in an old house, a typical replica of ancient newari house, attached with other two houses in either side. From the day I started speaking, I recognized these two houses as my neighboring houses, the ones with whom I need to share the rest of surroundings, walking pathways, corridors and the likes. Mr. Ramman Prajapati, to the left of my house, was closed to our family. What a neighbor should be, I got the true meaning out from him. I still remember when he allowed his bare land for use when we had to carry our funeral grandfather’s funeral program. He, very generously grant us that land for that day. I can never forget how he encouraged my father to send me abroad for the study.neighborhood is born between the unknown people when there is the existence of mutual “give and take” relation. It is an obvious when people turn into neighbors for one another because they share a common living and a common surrounding as a whole.

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Back to my hometown, I remember there used to be Mr.Hari Kafle to the right of my house. I never liked being his neighbor. In fact, I used to wish that he would leave the locality. I don’t remember how I complete my study along with those piercing noise that used to come from my right-sided-house. My father, along with Mr. Ramman Prajapati, had very often asked him for not to do such rude acts. The only incident I which I couldn’t forget is that when he refused to allow us to use his water during my sister’s marriage. Perhaps he used to be the most mean and cunning person in our locality. My father along with other had tried a lot to improve such behavior. It was when he lost his wife in a bus accident and we, being the neighbors, were all around him to surpass his difficult time. That was the moment when he asked forgiveness from all of others for his wrong acts.
Neighborhood is the relationship that is born irrespective of the blood-relation.one cannot refer his relatives in every urgent situation, but there would be always those helping hands in the form of neighbors who readily show their concern in our every little matter. There is a very right saying in Nepali” chemiki ko garma salko lagnu vaneko afno garma aago lagnu ho ”i.e. the trouble in neighbors’ home is our own trouble too. A good neighbor is the one who serves his selfless help to his neighbor. A neighboring feeling that is received from neighborhood is warmth in itself- a step towards humanity. When one is willing to share with and help to other human being without any blood relationship, it is the neighborhood. It is the same proximity approach that helps to create “we-feeling “bond among each other. One thing is certain that when a man is turned down by all of his rear and dear ones, it is that neighbor who would be always there to comfort and wow him/her. It is an evidence that how an eloped couple, a helpless person set their new world when there’s nobody around them, but their surrounding-sharers.
“We-feeling” and “give and take” is what neighborhood is concerned with. A sound neighborhood marks the well-being of the community, society and the nation as a whole. The mutuality that exists despite of the natural human instincts like jealousy, pride, rigidity, selfishness, etc march the rest of the community towards the progress. If one can understand the importance of neighborhood ,its is a boon for one’s overall personal development.

 

Religion to follow or believe?

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There are mainly four religions that have been dominating the entire population on this Earth. They are:
Christinism,Islam, Buddhism and Hindu. Being born in South-Eastern asian country,third world, Nepal was declared as the hindu country in the world by the then late King Birendra ,I was brought up assuming that Im a hindu. And again after the fall of monarchy in the country ,Nepal was declared as the secular state. Different indigenous groups from all over the country rose up demanding positive discrimination for every government posts and vacancies. Me, being a typical newari girl of Kathmandu from the Jyapu community, my religion was changed from Hindu to Buddhist. The trials of arguments and discussions among the scholars, different associations of indigenous groups, societies and cultural experts concluded that those (among the newars) who perform all the tasks and rituals from the life of birth to death through the hands of Bajracharya (Shakya) would be declared as Buddhist. Thats how i got my religion changed .

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Typical Newari girls of Kathmandu

There was a time when I used to wonder which religion I am particularly belonged to. I used to ask my mother ” What are we ? ”
And she promptly used to say ” We are Hindu .” From the primary level of schooling it was like injected that “Nepal is a hindu country and 80% of the population are hindu .” But yet when I with my mother used to visit Swayambhu,the only example of the temple where the hindu goddess and lord Buddha resides same territory, and my mother also used to take me the hindu temple first and then the residing gumbas there. One should not forget that the whole stupa of Swayambhu (chaitya in nepali). I used to observe the way goddess is worshipped in hindu style. With copper plates full of red and yellow powder, fresh flowers, eggs, few spoons of rice, a pot of water, and so on. They were all offered to her. I remember that idol statue of goddess all covered her face by those red and yellpe powders ,flowers and garlands . It almost used to make me think how the excat statue of goddess without all those accessories that were offered by pilgrims. After paying homage to goddes, I used to blindy follow my mother, with her hands full of grains that she sprinkles over the tiny stuppas and other small temples there.

Swayambar

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And there will come a time
when everything will be fine
We will be staying together
And that is all forever

You’ ll mark my line with the powder of red
Lucky i’ d be to have it on my head
I’ l bow down my head onto your knee
Promising to be wherever you take me

We’ ll do exchange of rings and garlands
Rounds of vows holding each other’s hands
Shower of wishes and blessings upon us
Whole world will be smiling looking at us